Thursday, August 25, 2005

^ the oc musiques ^

if, like me, you watched the oc and think "wow... great background songs" and wonders..
mmm... what's the title and who's singing?

well... if you're like me, please visit !!!

e n j o y....

# the special two - missy higgins #

the special two
by: missy higgins

I've hardly been outside my room in days,
'cause I don't feel that I deserve the sunshine's rays.
The darkness helped until the whiskey wore away,
And it's then I realize the conscience never fades.
When you're young you have this image of your life:
That you'll be scrupulous and one day even make a wife.
And you make boundaries you'd never dream to cross,
And if you happen to you wake completely lost.
But I will fight for you, be sure that
I will fight until we're the special two once again.

And we will only need each other, we'll bleed together,
Our hands would not be taught to hold another's,
When we were the special two.
And we could only see each other, we'd bleed together,
These arms will not be taught to need another,
'Cause we were the special two.

I remember someone old once said to me:
"Lies will lock you up with truth the only key."
But I was comfortable and warm inside my shell,
And couldn't see this place would soon become my hell.
So is it better to tell and hurt or lie to save their face?
Well I guess the answer is don't do it in the first place.
I know I'm not deserving of your trust from you right now,
But if by chance you change your mind you know I will not
Let you down 'cause we were the special two, and will be again.


I step outside my mind's eye's for a minute.
And I look over me like a doctor looking for disease,
Or something that could ease the pain.
But nothing cures the hurt you, you bring on by yourself,
Just remembering, just remembering how we were...

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

# Maybe I'm Amazed - Jem #

Maybe I'm Amazed
by: Paul McCartney
as performed by: Jem
(thanks to the Anonymous who informed me of this =D)

Maybe I'm Amazed At The Way You Love Me All The Time
Maybe I'm Afraid Of The Way I Love You
Maybe I'm Amazed At The Way You Pulled Me Out Of Time
And Hung Me On A Line
Maybe I'm Amazed At The Way I Really Need You

Maybe I'm A Girl And Maybe I'm A Lonely Girl
Who's In The Middle Of Something
That She Doesn't Really Understand

Maybe I'm A Girl And Maybe You're The Only Man
Who Could Ever Help Me
Baby Won't You Help Me Understand

Maybe I'm Amazed At The Way You're With Me All The Time
Maybe I'm Afraid Of The Way I Leave You
Maybe I'm Amazed At The Way You Help Me Sing My Song
Right Me When I'm Wrong
Maybe I'm Amazed At The Way I Really Need You


Maybe I'm Amazed At The Way You're With Me All The Time
Maybe I'm Afraid Of The Way I Leave You
Maybe I'm Amazed At The Way You Help Me Sing My Song
Right Me When I'm Wrong
Maybe I'm Amazed At The Way I Really Need You

Sunday, August 21, 2005

# bad day - daniel powter #

bad day
by: daniel powter

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the brink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

You had a bad day
Had a bad day (repeat)

Saturday, August 20, 2005

^ the oc - season 1 episode 19 ^

Sandy: but you're not gonna give up on him
Marissa: but he wants me to
Sandy: only because he expects you to, it's crazy, love is crazy it's always challenging, it's never easy
Marissa: yeah.. but is it always this hard?
Sandy: sometimes.. but you hang in there anyway... if you're having the worst fight in the world, or even some stupid argument that you cannot even remember what it's about.. because it's worth it... u guys have been through so much already, why quit now?

this episode and the 18th episode is by far the best that i've seen in it =)
hate to admit, but i sort of enjoying watching it, eventhough i thought i wouldn't :P

# with you - jessica simpson #

with you
by: jessica simpson

The real me is a southern girl with her Levis on and an open heart
Wish I could say the save the world, like I was super girl
The real me is to laugh all night lying in the grass just talking about love
But lately I've been jaded life got so complicated

I'm still thinking about it almost forgot what it was like
Do you know what it feels like?

Cause with you
I can let my hair down
I can say anything crazy
I know you'll catch me right before I hit the ground
With nothing but a T-shirt on
I never felt so beautiful
Baby as I do now
Now that I'm with you
With you
Now that I'm with you
You speak and it's like a song

And just like that all my walls come down
It's like a private joke just meant for us to know
I relate to you naturally
Everybody else just fades away
Sometimes it's hard to breathe
Just knowing you found me
Cuz I'm still thinking about it almost forgot what it was like
Do you know what it feels like?


Come and take me
Love you save me
Like nobody else
Now I can be myself
With you


Wednesday, August 17, 2005

# stay - lisa loeb #

You say I only hear what I want to.
You say I talk so all the time so.
And I thought what I felt was simple,
and I thought that I don't belong,
and now that I am leaving,
now I know that I did something wrong 'cause I missed you.
Yeah yeah, I missed you.

And you say I only hear what I want to:
I don't listen hard,
don't pay attention to the distance that you're running
to anyone, anywhere,
I don't understand if you really care,
I'm only hearing negative: no, no, no.

So I turned the radio on, I turned the radio up,
and this woman was singing my song:
lover's in love, and the other's run away,
lover is crying 'cause the other won't stay.
Some of us hover when we weep for the other who was
dying since the day they were born.
Well, well, this is not that;
I think that I'm throwing, but I'm thrown.
And I thought I'd live forever, but now I'm not so sure.
You try to tell me that I'm clever,
but that won't take me anyhow, or anywhere with you.

You said that I was naive,
and I thought that I was strong.
I thought, "hey, I can leave, I can leave."
Oh, but now I know that I was wrong, 'cause I missed you.
Yeah, I miss you.
You said, "I caught you 'cause I want you and one day I'll let you go."
You try to give away a keeper, or keep me 'cause you know you're just
scared to lose.

And you say, "Stay."
And you say I only hear what I want to.

# goin crazy - natalie #

Goin Crazy
by Natalie

Ever since the day you went away
And left me lonely and cold
My life just hasn't been the same
Oh baby no
When I looked into your eyes
The moment that I let you go I just broke down (down)

Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrifice
'Cause the feelin that I feel within no other man
Would ever make me feel so right

It's nice to smile when I get your phone call at night
But I'd rather have you here with me
Right next to me
And I miss the way you hold me in your sight

I've got to let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I've gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world for you
I'd do anything

That's right baby
I'm goin' crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)


Break it down now I'll tell you what I feel
From the moment that I met you it's been so damn real
My heart seems to skip another beat every time we speak
Can't believe I feel so weak
Tell me that you really need me
And you want me
And you miss me
And you love me
I'm your lady
I'll be around waiting for you
Put it down be the woman for you
I'm falling so deep for you
Crazy over you I'm calling
Callin' out to you
What am I gonna do?
It's true no frontin'
It's you ain't no other
I can no longer go on without you
I'll just break down (down)

I've got to let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I've gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world for you
I'd do anything


ooo, crazy,(ooo)
lady (ooo)
lately (ooo)

^ the pianist ^

just finished watching "the pianist"... Adrian Brody played as Wladyslaw Szpilman in it.. Eddy, my friend at work lend it to me.... it's telling a story about a pianist who by luck survived the World War II but lost his whole family.. the movie show how he moved from places to places with the help of some of his friends from the past....

the movie showed the cruelty, the desperation, the effect this effents have on people... and to think that what actually happens in the World War II is very similar or even worse than this...
sigh... i wonder... what would i do if i were to experience this? am i a survivor? as much as i'd like to think so, i gave up on snowboarding after my first try... but i guess it's different, when it's our life, our presence in this world which is at stake... but yeah.. is it just me or all of us actually quietly wonders, are we a survivor? can i survive like what Adrian Brody has eventhough he's left with nothing? would i even struggle to survive when i have to drink from a filthy bucket?
and if i wouldn't... does that makes me a coward or a loser or whatever it's called?

anyway... back to the movie, to me it's kinda long and dragging at some points... but the actors and screenplays are great.. so if you've got some time, it's definitely worth watching... and the fact that this gave an insight to what has actually happened historically... it makes me realise how lucky i am... with everything that i've got... why do some of us still complains?

well i guess it's a human nature to want more.. as long as it's in moderation....

and another moral story from the movie, i guess we can't judge someone based on their race or anything, cause everyone that we don't know have the same odd of being a bad or a nice person... and when we start judging from the look, everything start to became wrong...
but then again... it's just my own opinion...

" a few motivator by Ralph S Marston, Jr & others "

"This place, this moment, this life situation is your starting point. Build on it and you can go wherever you choose."
-- Daily Motivator @

Build on it
You know what to expect from yourself. What if you expected a little bit more?
You're comfortable with how much you can accomplish. What if you decided to accomplish a little bit more?
Where you are is a great place to be. Because you can start from where you are and expand upon it.
You can take what you've been doing, and do it a little better. You can take what you know, and use it as a basis for learning more.
There are certain areas of life in which you've been successful. And now you have an opportunity to build on that success.
This place, this moment, this life situation is your starting point. Build on it, and you can go wherever you choose.
-- Ralph Marston

Do it right
It usually takes longer to do it right. And yet when you do it right it lasts much longer too.
It usually takes more effort to do it right. And yet when you do it right the effort is never wasted.
Often, you have to go against the crowd if you are to do it right. And yet, in time, the world will come to appreciate and value what you have done.
You will probably have to make short-term sacrifices in order to do it right. Yet the long-term, continuing benefits you receive are well worth the cost.
People who would rather take shortcuts will resent you for doing it right. Yet they will come to understand your wisdom when their own shortsightedness fails them.
It takes initiative and courage to do it right. And in return you attain a level of achievement that cannot be reached any other way.
-- Ralph Marston

A solid foundation
Life is busy and the world is complex. Give yourself time to take it all in.
Events come at you quickly, and keep coming all the time. Regularly give yourself the time and space to make sense of it all.
When you get too caught up in your efforts, you can lose track of why you're making them. Take the time, again and again in the midst of it all, to remember why you do what you do.
Keep yourself connected to the reality of who you are. Don't allow yourself to be defined by the events that come and go, for that would leave you with nothing solid to hold on to.
Cultivate and nurture a part of yourself that can rise above whatever may come. Then you will have a powerful perspective from which to deal with it all.
Make sure your life has a solid foundation in what is real, in what is lasting, in what is meaningful to you. And then nothing will have the power to overwhelm you for long.
-- Ralph Marston

and this one from someone else...

"If you have made mistakes...
there is always another chance for you...
you may have a fresh start any moment you choose,
for this thing we call "failure" is not the falling down,
but the staying down."
-- Mary Pickford (1893-1979) Canadian Actress

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

" It's a mistake! by Tom Walsh "

I can really make use of the following passage by Tom Walsh currently..

"I've made a lot of big mistakes in my life. I've hurt people, I've broken things, I've neglected to fulfill responsibilities, I've said stupid things, I've hurt people by saying stupid things--you name it, I've been there. Fortunately, as I grow older I recognize situations that are just waiting for mistakes a little earlier than I used to, and I'm able to avoid making many of the same mistakes that I've made before. Many, not all.

But one of the most liberating aspects of my life these days is the fact that I'm now able to accept my mistakes for what they are--mistakes. Not crimes (in my case, anyway), and not horrible actions that will lead to complete social stigmatization, but just mistakes. I used to beat myself up over them, and my own mental beatings after the mistakes were much worse than the mistake itself, or anything that anyone else could have done to me as a result of the mistake.

It used to be that if I said something hurtful, I'd feel that the person I hurt never would want to talk to me again, that the person would reject me completely for the rest of my life. The reality of the situation, though, was that most of the time, the other person forgot about it pretty quickly, and I was still agonizing over the response of someone who wasn't even thinking of what I did any more.

I'd also be afraid that once someone saw me make a mistake, that person wouldn't trust me any longer. It was pretty awful, because just like in the previous example, most people forgot about my mistake pretty quickly--or at least, they weren't holding it against me.

The time and energy that I wasted agonizing over what were almost always minor mistakes could have been spent much more effectively on pursuits other than making myself miserable.

Nowadays, though, mistakes are an important part of my life, for they have a very positive effect on me now--at least two very positive effects that I can think of.

First off, they help me to learn. Once I make a mistake now, I own it--I admit it and I look at it to figure out what went wrong. As a teacher, it's very important for me to know what goes into a mistake, both for my sake and for the sake of anyone that I'm able to teach about mistakes. I learn a lot from my mistakes--I learn how things shouldn't be done, I learn how I often misjudge situations or people, and I learn that I can't foresee all results of my actions.

Secondly, mistakes keep me humble, for they always provide me with an opportunity to offer a heartfelt apology. Apologies are an invitation for forgiveness, and forgiveness is a positive aspect of anyone's life. Once I apologize for a mistake I've made, my relationship with the other person or people strengthens, as long as the other parties are willing to accept the apology.

I no longer agonize over mistakes, and I recognize now just how harmful my own thoughts were when I used to do that. I kind of wish that I had some of the lost time and energy back, but I know that the agonizing was another mistake, one that took me a little bit longer to learn from.

Take risks and make your mistakes--you're human, and you're bound to make mistakes. When you do make them, learn from them, and accept them as a part of your life, a part of who you are and who you'll be. My guess is that nobody gets through this life without making an extremely high number of mistakes, and you're no exception. Another guess of mine is that the wisest among us are those who have made the most mistakes and who have owned up to and learned from them all. Your road to wisdom isn't in a book--it's in your own mistakes!"

-- Tom Walsh @ Living Live Fully (

I guess it helps to realise that, after all, i am only human...

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

" be yourself by anonymous "

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."
-- anonymous

" persist by Ralph S Marton, Jr "


When you're tired and your energy is gone, when problems pile on top of problems, and you don't know where you will get the strength to keep going, that is when the race is almost won.

When you've encountered every obstacle that you could possibly have imagined, and then been faced with many more, you're rapidly approaching your goal.

That is when a little bit more persistence can make a big, big difference. The longer you persevere, the more likely is your success. Each challenge you meet serves to solidify your achievement.

The exhaustion you feel is priming you for the sweet taste of accomplishment which is to come. Keep going for as long as it takes. The steeper the climb, the closer you are to the summit. Persist, especially now.

Copyright Ralph S. Marston, Jr. Used by permission. From The Daily Motivator® at